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[stolide]

For me as well, after a period of time did I cease to care about lucid dreaming.

These days, I just think of them as a harmless side effect of meditating as one falls to sleep.

[issacweirdo]

Alright then. I guess it will then be a good time to focus more on my academics if I can't focus on lucid dreaming.

[issacweirdo]

Oh man, I should really stop my nasty habit of staying up at night...
EDIT
Wow, and as soon as I stop caring about lucid dreaming...
When I went to bed at 2 AM, I had a massive lucid dream. I can still remember some details, though not many. Point being, I had a good amount of control. I was able to mind control people, create unlimited ammo in a gun I was holding, convince a gang I was going up against to join me, kill off my non-loyal subordinates (I knew it was a dream at this point), do PK on a couple of stuff here and there, and even had some fun with ladies. I think my motivation for lucid dreams is beginning to grow again It's weird how I can be aware I am dreaming at all times, but to figure out if I should activate my reasoning skills. Well, "at all times" is an exaggeration, but the majority of the time I know I am dreaming. I just get to choose if I should act out or not inside of them. Most of the time to get my logic/memory going I need to be placed in a slight stressful situation. If I am ever in a nightmare then I force myself to wake up or to change the dream scenery completely.

[psiman]

Oh man, I should really stop my nasty habit of staying up at night...
EDIT
Wow, and as soon as I stop caring about lucid dreaming...
When I went to bed at 2 AM, I had a massive lucid dream. I can still remember some details, though not many. Point being, I had a good amount of control. I was able to mind control people, create unlimited ammo in a gun I was holding, convince a gang I was going up against to join me, kill off my non-loyal subordinates (I knew it was a dream at this point), do PK on a couple of stuff here and there, and even had some fun with ladies. I think my motivation for lucid dreams is beginning to grow again It's weird how I can be aware I am dreaming at all times, but to figure out if I should activate my reasoning skills. Well, "at all times" is an exaggeration, but the majority of the time I know I am dreaming. I just get to choose if I should act out or not inside of them. Most of the time to get my logic/memory going I need to be placed in a slight stressful situation. If I am ever in a nightmare then I force myself to wake up or to change the dream scenery completely.

That sounded really fun!
Maybe I should try lucid dreaming....

[issacweirdo]

That sounded really fun!
Maybe I should try lucid dreaming....

You should. I have just been lucid dreaming for such a long time that I got somewhat bored of it. The prospect of doing whatever I want to do doesn't seem that appealing to me anymore. I have enough experience of lucid dreaming to know my dreams are different from the reality I see. Usually memory is not activated during the dreaming process, unless if you start to lucid dream, while in real life I am always aware of my past. At least, that's the case for me. I make the distinction between dreams and waking life by the way memory works during those moments. Of course, this is more like anecdotal evidence than anything else.

[issacweirdo]

Wow, do you know what really sucks? I can go to sleep at my usual bedtime...except it's too hot. I *guess* I'll have to wait until it cools down some, since I don't have AC. Still, I would rather be sleeping than staying up late at night. I'll try for an hour. If it's a no-go then I'll work on my history subject's homework.

I also think I had a lucid dream this morning, though I can't remember what it was about. Not enough time to record my dreams, especially since school has started some weeks ago. I'm barely getting by with 4-7 hours of sleep...Not healthy for my teenage brain. It's partially my fault though since I have to commute for about thirty minutes-forty-five in total, about an hour going to school and coming back. I don't get home until around 8 PM though. I've gotten lucky and have been able to come back home at 5-ish PM, but I'm planning to do sports so I won't get back until around 9 PM. Little time to actually do anything. Hopefully next year I can catch on some Zs, since I'm planning to double on math and science separately, maybe get away with taking three math classes. History and foreign language is just not my forte, though I'm not horribly bad at Chinese and I don't suck at history. They're just not my passions, so it's kind of pointless if I put more time into them when I could be using it more wisely, like taking more math classes. Damn, it's going to be so exciting.

[issacweirdo]

Well, some subjects of mine are kicking my butt, but I'll manage. Other than that nothing really happened.

[issacweirdo]

A post that I posted like two weeks ago (?) on Jeremy's journal. If you started to lose interest in my log, since I must admit it has started to become less about my practice of meditation and what not to more about my personal life, here's something to keep you occupied. If you want the original post then walk over to Jeremy's journal.

Types of essentials for psi abilities:
Expansion of astral body
Contraction of astral body
Collection of psi
Expansion of psi
Contraction of psi
Programming

Basic Questions for classification:
1) Is it related directly to the subtle energy as psi? If so, proceed to question 5. If not, then continue to question 2.
2) Is it related directly to the manipulation of the astral body? Proceed to question 3.
3) Is one's consciousness located inside the astral body, or in the physical and astral body? Proceed to question 4, regardless if it's a no or yes. Keep track of answer.
4) Does the astral body contract or expand? With answer look at classifications.
5) Does the subtle energy contract or expand? With answer look at classifications.

Basic Classifications + Properties:
Subtle Energy-
I) Programmed;
   A)Construct
      1)Shield
      2)Attack
      3)AI sentinel
      4)Manual-controlled sentinel
   B)Remote-viewing
      1)Precognition
      2)Retro-cognition
      3)Remote-viewing in present time
   C)PK
      1)Micro-pk
      2)Macro-pk
   D)Telepathy
      1)Telepathy (form of word/image/noise/taste/tactile/smell communication)
      2)Empathy (form of emotion communication)
Astral Body-
I)
   A)Transfer of consciousness to astral body
      1)Astral projection
   B)Consciousness divided between astral body and physical body
      1)Bi-location
      2)Astral projection

Notes:
1)This is a basic classification system. This is mostly for beginners; it is not intended to be used for mediocre/advanced psions.
2)Some personal belief went into the classification system. However, my belief that psi does not exist was not incorporated into the classification system; if it was then there would be no purpose for the useless system. Therefore I had to sustain my belief in order to create a valuable tool for beginners in psionics.
3)Following note 2, there were also some beliefs of mine, assuming if psi was true, on what I personally believe how psi works. For example, my belief is that psions are only able to manipulate two things only; their astral body and psi. Whether the astral body is also made of highly complex-structured psi is out of my scope; therefore I will assume they are different. I am also not entirely sure on how the mind would interact with the astral body or psi, so it is assumed the mind has a mystical property that allows control over these two things.
4)I included programming as an essential separate from psi. Programming isn't necessarily psi, but more like someone's intent. Their intent can be imprinted on psi to make it perform certain functions. Once again, I am not too sure how it does this, but it is directly related to the mind-psi connection. Since I don't know what the connection is, I will therefore most likely know nothing on how the imprint process works. I actually don't know anything, but if it was another person it's possible to know how the process works, but not on what makes the process work.
5)To even move psi requires intent, which requires the mind; the mind uses intent, which is another form of saying programming. Therefore all psi must require programming to even perform simple functions like to move. There is then no such thing as manipulating psi without using programming.
6)I separated PK into two categories to make classification a little bit easier. For example, affecting probability would be around the atomic scale. However, moving chairs would be at the macroscopic level.
7)I personally think telepathy is just communication of thoughts, which includes empathy. I just think emotions are more complex forms of thoughts. Some people disagree though, so I just included empathy and telepathy as separate. If there's too much problems then I'll just change "D)Telepathy" to "D)Communication of thoughts".
8)Astral stuff is so popular that I just decided to include it.


Now for something that happened to me today:
I was pretty sleepy, so I decided to daydream in the bus I was taking to relieve some physical stress. I close my eyes, while listening to music from Hans Zimmerman, to relax. I have my mp3 in my hand while I am listening to some tunes. Anyways I'm just going over the classes I had in my school. I remember dropping my pencil on accident and bending down to pick it up. All of a sudden I'm jolted awake by a bang near my feet. When I looked down I realized I accidentally forgot about my physical body and let go of the mp3 player I had in my hand. It was pretty embarrassing. The moral of the story is never keep an mp3 player in your hand if you are trying to meditate/daydream.

[issacweirdo]

Gosh, I can't remember what dream I had today. Maybe it was about PK? I'm not entirely sure. All I know was that I was semi-lucid and was just doing some basic stuff to test out my lucid dreaming skills. I think I was screwing around with my dream-perception skills in my dream. The main part I do remember is that I was in front of a mirror and staring at my pupils. I was pretty bored, so I decided to play with my eyes. I kept increasing and decreasing the size of my pupils. It was actually very fun. I have a dark brown iris, so from afar it seems as if my iris is black. By manipulating my pupil and iris I made both of my eyes turn completely black. I was only able to do it once though, since the notion of having black eyes started to scare me and I began to get the feeling the dream was going to turn into a nightmare if I did not stop.

[issacweirdo]

I remember my last dream being somewhat trippy. Problem is, I can't really remember anything about it. I might look into recording my dreams again with a voice recorder. The problem is that I always sound groggy and I stutter when I barely wake up. I need at least fifteen minutes to get back to my normal self. Since I forget the majority of my dream within fifteen minutes, it can be very hard at times to understand just what the hell I'm saying after I record my voice. What a dilemma...

[issacweirdo]

Unfortunately I might go to sleep earlier than usual since I have to go back to school after Labor Day holiday. I was having such a nice time as well during my mini-mini-vacation. I'm planning to carry out a winter break sleep-deprivation experiment that will run at most 192 hours, so that is also very exciting. The partner I want to carry out the experiment with I have not gotten a response from yet. The main measuring tools will be: voice recorder, video camera, notebook with pencils, and some math/philosophy/English problems. Then I'll also test out short-memory/long-term memory, most likely by asking each of us to remember a specific sequence of numbers, a key phrase, and a daily "repeat after me" exercises. I'll probably have to pre-record the questions I'll be asking, since most likely I'll have some problems myself. The main problems I'm starting to have are: 1) Finding a place to stay and 2) Ways to entertain ourselves for at most 192 hours. After two days everything we experience will probably be hilarious, unto which the 4th day arrives and we might be shitting ourselves with constant hallucinations. Sounds fun. Anyways, I'll talk with my desired experiment partner tomorrow at school.

[Birth]

Interesting. You should get msn.

[issacweirdo]

I have skype if that counts for anything.
EDIT
Screw it, I'm downloading Live messenger.

[issacweirdo]

Ugh, I had a horrible nightmare last night. I dreamed that I was in my brother's room, in his bed. Don't get weird ideas; when he goes back to college I sleep at his bed since my little brother likes to go to sleep early. I have a heavy load of homework, so I stay up late often. Anyways I'm dreaming about dreaming in his bed when I'm actually in my bunk bed. I was trying to fall asleep when I suddenly get scared. I see this black, hazy gaseous THING covering my eyes. I feel this incredible pressure on my back, so I'm struggling to not freak out. I even consider to yell for my mom, though that would only scare the **** out of me. So while I'm suffering with these feelings of dread, pain, and fear I am actually relatively calm, in the sense I can think straight. I'm ashamed of myself though. It's a secret that I used to be a Satanist, though not much of a secret now, when before I used to be a Catholic for the majority of my childhood. Of course, now I'm a hardcore atheist; weird turn of events, huh? Point being the thought that immediately came to my mind was that the black haze and the pressure was Satan :'( I know, pitiful. I sometimes return to old habits if I get extremely scared. Good news: I did not pray in response, something that I was not expecting! In previous nightmares when the tension reached to abnormal amounts I would always pray in response. It seems that I have at least gotten rid of that habit. Now I need to eliminate my old habit of automatically explaining the unknown with my past knowledge of psionics and religion :\ Not an easy feat, but I'll manage somehow. Other than that I am extremely tired. I'm going to try to sleep early, as in right now.

[Birth]

I don't think it was Lucifer. But that's a WHOLE 'nother topic for me.

While, I do know what you're saying and I've been through it. It sounds similar to Witch's Lock, but I've never known Witch's Lock cases to have a black thing over them.

[issacweirdo]

I don't think it was Lucifer.

Dude, I don't even believe there is such a thing as an "entity", other than the ones we can experience through the five senses. In other words, I don't think there was any special significance to it. I also ate two PBJ sandwiches before bed, since they were toasted and they taste so good. I wasn't really feeling comfortable to top it off. I also sleep late, so night time can sometimes scare me. I remember I was trying to comfort myself I wouldn't get a nightmare. I usually know if I'm going to lucid dream, have a normal dream, or have a nightmare before-hand. I might be increasing the chances though, so meh.

But that's a WHOLE 'nother topic for me.

Agreed on my part. It would take a very long time to explain...

While, I do know what you're saying and I've been through it. It sounds similar to Witch's Lock, but I've never known Witch's Lock cases to have a black thing over them.

I've never heard that term before, so I looked it up. Are you referring to seeing your hair as white? Dude, it was black. And I can tell you straight-up it was not my hair. In my dreams anything are possible, so psionics can be a given if I want it to. Just because I don't believe it in real life doesn't mean it can no longer affect me in my dreams Point being, I had my dream-senses telling me the black haze was not an extension of my body. So I freaked out a little bit, but I had to be careful to also not freak out too much. I knew that if I did the nightmare could have gotten much worse.

[Birth]

Witchs Lock is the feeling you get when you can't move or get up. And you feel a pressure on your chest, as if something is sitting on you.

Back in the olden days, this would happen to Men, who would accuse the nearest female of being a witch, or whatever. They thought they saw (that) woman on them. So the term Witchs Lock becomes.

[issacweirdo]

Witchs Lock is the feeling you get when you can't move or get up. And you feel a pressure on your chest, as if something is sitting on you.

Back in the olden days, this would happen to Men, who would accuse the nearest female of being a witch, or whatever. They thought they saw (that) woman on them. So the term Witchs Lock becomes.

Well that's a first

[issacweirdo]

Ah, today I had the uncommon pleasure of daydreaming during my bus ride back home. In all truth, it was very relaxing. I turned on my mp3 player, donned on my earplugs of awesomeness, and pressed play on that bad boy. My mind instantly reached a sense of inner tranquility. I relaxed my neck, letting my face droop downwards towards the floor. The rush of air from the open bus windows flow through my hair, giving me a slight prickly sensation on the top of my scalp. I close my eyes, letting the music guide the direction of my mental imagery. I began with a light warm-up, reviewing my day and what I had learned at school. Then I slowly start to pick up pace, paying less attention on my school and more attention to my dreams last night. I was trying to remember what they were, though I don't think I succeeded. Instead, I experienced something similar to a dream, though less dramatic than what an actual dream feels like. Even though my daydreaming had some fantasy aspects incorporated, there was still a realistic sense to it all. I was vaguely aware of my body still experiencing the music, though at this point it had become a dull noise. I would occasionally wake up in a groggy state, making sure I did not drool, since I often breathe through my mouth when I sleep or daydream. After making sure everything is alright, and making sure nobody noticed my drooling if I did indeed drool, I would resume my daydreaming experience. It felt a very long time; the sense of time itself was so twisted that I could have sworn I spent an hour inside the daydream, though it's literally impossible since the entire bus ride itself is about thirty minutes. My head was telling me it was time to quit the daydream since I was getting close to my stop (I have this weird ability of accurately telling what time it is). I open my eyes, finding everything in distinct red and blue colors. I'm not alarmed; this is a frequent occurrence and I have learned to become more accustomed to it all. So I take off my ear plugs, clean them a little bit, tuck them nice and tight inside my backpack, and resume the rest of my day. Who knew I could spend such a long time typing something that only took place within thirty minutes? Point being, it's these small moments that I appreciate a lot. It's one of the things that keep me sane, despite my constant flow of nihilistic/materialistic/atheistic/transhumanistic (?) thoughts on reality, specifically life.

By the way, if anyone wants the exact process on how I daydream then I am always willing to share my methods.

[psiman]

I would like to hear the exact proccess of how you daydream.